so nothing new to report.
wednesday hasn't been the best towards me. i got denied for unemployment.
i started to drink alone. and this is what i needed.
i talked to a friend that understands me like no one i can imagine. she knows exactly what i see or feel without telling her every detail.
life isn't amazing and nor is it worse ever.
but in the past few days i have come to something along the lines of everything happening for reasons. and that someone has a plan. i have been agnostic for so many years. i never not believed in a god. but still so unsure of what the purpose of everything is and what the american dream still is.

i can sit here and fight everything but the american dream is what i am after. it is what everyone is after. but what is the dream?

in other words, i need to read the great gatsby again.