Its been awhile. I didnt forget. It just became time to hold things in for awhile. At first it was I just didn't have the time. Now its become an avoidance. A way to hold it in. To not talk about things. I live everyday in a haze. Everything just rolls together. I give my heart and soul at work and still feel under utilized. Im no closer to being debt free than I was this time last year. I gotmyself into this mess years ago and I want to get out but I dont think I can. My relationships with people have suffered greatly. Idont communicate with my family like I once did. I amjust at the point where I realize all these negative changes and people that leave , y life are because of me. That realization fuckig sucks. Icant blame anyone but myself,but I have always been honest. And at times that gets me in trouble. Maybe I need a change of scenary. A fresh start. Im just on an island.
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