it's been a week of work. granted this work is probably not like the work ill be doing but ive been setting up a 28000 sq ft warehouse all week and i love it. i like working for my money. i like at the end of the day being tired from my job and being dirty. i am nowhere near where i want to be in my life, but im on my way and this first week made it feel like a leap instead of a step. im ready to be great, i know that in the past 2 to 3 years ive been nothing but an unhappy prick. i attribute that to being so broke and not knowing if i could eat, and having every single cent be accounted for. im smiling now. and im glad for that

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chapter iv. a new hope.

i dont get to go to hessel this year. this is the 20th anniversary of the first time we ever made that trip as a family. it sucks that i cant do it with a new job and stuff, but itll be a change of pace for me as well as i have to watch my moms dog the entire week. ill be home in the htp for an entire week. i havent done that and probably two years. i know ill never move back home and it sucks, because i grew up there. but i also know theres a lot of bad memories i have in that city. and being elsewhere gets me away from those things. i am moving to ann arbor at the end of 2013. put that in stone. i feel that with my hopeful upgrade financially will make me able to do that. and its not that i dont love my friends back home, theyve seen me at my worst. but i feel like the people ive met in 5 years understand me more. i miss that play i miss a2 so much. i loved living alone because i didnt have to talk to anyone unless i wanted to. i could go days without seeing anyone else and id be ok with that. while good in some ways having a roommate gets me out of my bed and sociable daily. granted i spend most of my time in my room watching movies, listening to music, but i wish i could do that on my own. by myself. im ready to branch out once again. im ready for this new chapter to start in my life. i just wish it could've/would've happened sooner.
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New Chapter

This week marks the end of my career and country fresh. i have gotten a new job fulltime being an assistant manager in training. im extremely excited. ive never had this type of sadness for leaving but happiness for beginning. cf was in no way the best job ever as far as pay and hours, but i always woke up every day be happy to go to work. this job has changed me a lot as a person. i feel that i am now able to think no matter what. how on every drive i could space out and not remember any of it. this job gave me the luxury of making my own hours. this new job will not. but im excited. ive never been above the poverty line financially speaking so itll be great to be able to worry less about money. money has always been my foe. and im glad that being poor for so long has taught me the value of a dollar. im sure ill make a few dumb purchases, but the way i live wont change except for the fact of being healthier by making lunches at times instead of eating fast food constantly.