Thursday, October 9, 2008

funerals....

many people hate funerals whether it be because they don't want to see loved ones dead or the smell or things like that. no matter what kind of funeral it is whether it be a personal funeral of someone i knew or a television funeral i still start to almost weep. for example just now, a character of a television show i have watched extremely close for the past 5 years CSI a lead character Warrick Brown dies. i hated Warrick throughout the past 8 seasons. however when his funeral came about on tonights season premiere i almost started crying. not because he was dead but because Grissom started to almost cry. i have a weakness for this shit i really do. i avoid funerals at all costs, unless it is someone i truly know. i often don't even go to family funerals if i havent really interacted with those people in the past. to be completely honest i don't ever even go up to the casket. i sit comfortably in the last row and observe the people crying their hearts out. i hate funerals. and i want my funeral someday to be something of enjoyment. maybe a keg or two. i know that it probably won't happen but a boy can dream.


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Monday, October 6, 2008

something of change.

my name is bob. and i am a recovering racist.

it couldn't be more bluntly put then that. i have come to the realization today that my racial marks and constant prejudgements need to stop. i try not to blame my past surroundings with this but i can't help it. for one common example i look to my former place of business. about 60-75% of all people that came in there were of foreign descent. i came to this predisposed notion that all arabs, or asians were the same. to be completely honest i was for the most part right. but what i always fail to realize is that this is just a small portion of the full foreign population. most asians that came in there were wanting better deals and not wanting to listen to things said. most arabic people came in smelling badly and not really buying much. i feel that my constanst disdain for them was because of my environment. now working at cabela's i feel sympathetic to people who cannot speak my language. an example will follow now, today i dealt with a customer who was spanish speaking only he did not no one word of english. he wanted to try on a shoe in a size 8.5 i did my best to help him out by pointing to the product but that did not help. so what i did next was attempt to speak the spanish language. i am a horrible spanish speaker and only remember dirty phrases which i will not texplain now. however i did my best to explain to him. and i helped him out. i got him the shoe he wanted.

after he left i began thinking of this blog post and what i wanted to say. i now have become sympathetic for foreigners whether it was people new to the country or who have been here for years. it's hard to explain the epiphany that i had at this moment. i feel now more than ever american's need to be bilingual. i know the common argument which i used to flat out say. they are in our country have them learn our language. now i am flipping it, i am saying we need to help ourselves learn these languages whether it is spanish being taught in our schools or simple arabic phrases i think it should happen. as time goes by the need for a second language will become imminent. most people that i know who came from other countries (manly bosnian) are bilingual or even trilingual. why can't we adjust to them? i used to say they need to adjust to us but i cannot say that any longer because well i need to adjust. for far to long this melting pot has shown that it is not working everyone has their cliques just like high school was except it's races that are not together.

i used to think i was a liberal when i was younger, by younger i mean only a few years ago. but i truly was not. i didn't think that all races should be together infact i was kind of for them being more separate then together but now i see myself wanting this melting pot to be as one.

secondly, affirmative action. now this may be contradictory to my last statement but i do not think race or quotas should deal with any form of application whether it be school or for jobs. i did research on this last year and found that there were added points on an application if from foreign descent. i understand we need to make an education possible for all, however i don't think it is correct to put one's race on an application and because of this have it be one of the deciding factors of getting into a college or getting a job or not. i am also not for having to put one's gender down either it does the same in colleges, however i do know that with jobs there has to be some sort of quota with women and non-american dissents because many are racist or sexist which truly needs to stop happening.

third, as the election gets nearer and nearer i feel that obama needs to be president. he is just what we need to help with the melting pot. how could you not help, he is of many different dissents and can teach us a thing or two about tolerance.


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