life things

i dont know if the perfect job exists, but i want to find it.
i realize having 2 jobs and working extremely odd hours is not a life i want to lead forever and a possible opportunity came up with redbull. the interview went well and ill know by wednesday. but as i finally have time to think about it i am unsure if i want this job. i took a job several years ago with radioshack, i went into it with a negative attitude. and that just transferred for the entire job. i have two jobs now, and while redbull is full time and stuff i just dont know if i want it. 5am start times are not what bothers me. but just not knowing if this is a career bothers me. from what ive gathered through mere observations alone is that there is not much room for advancement. dean foods may not have that either but theres so many more aspects of dean foods than there is at redbull. i think i might just stay where i am at for now and keep looking. i just want my next job to be something i can see myself at in 4 years and be proud of that achievement. redbull im unsure of and i think while typing this blog ive convinced myself to pass.

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i find that i hate going to bed at times. not because im not tired or anything but because i get in a great mood and a mood of joyous. only to have to go to sleep shortly after. i know waking up will all but erase this mood. hopefully my dreams will reflect this mood. im excited to go home next weekend. my brother was right in his analogy that doing something once in a while makes it feel better than doing it all the time. this isnt true for everything, including his original on carlos pizza. but it can relate well to being home. when i dont go there often i tend to miss it more. my family my friends. so itll be good to go back home this weekend. im hoping for some luck on st pattys day. but we'll see where the day takes me.

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