22 songs you should know about in bob lees' eyes

these songs are in no order, but i feel that these songs at least in my life are needed in others. they have helped me through lots of things, some are new some are old. some describe times in my life some describe moods in my life. some are amazing some are not as amazing. but if i had a playlist in my life most of these songs would make it. it is hard to make a best of with new songs coming everyday and not remembering some songs. these are all from memory. i hope you enjoy. if not then i am sorry, but these songs always bring joy or memories to my life.
22. straylight run - existentialism on prom night
21. something corporate - ben franklin's kite
20. the airborne toxic event - somewhere around midnight
19. city and colour - waiting
18. new found glory - eyesore (acoustic)
17. the ataris - looking back on today
16. glycerine - bush
15. again i go unnoticed - dashboard confessional
14. play crack the sky - brand new
13. city and colour - sensible heart
12. apocolyptica - i don't care
11. brand new - soco armaretto lime
10. something corporate - konstantine
09. the early november - ever so sweet
08. pink floyd - wish you were here
07. senses fail - let it enfold you
06. kings of leon - use somebody
05. death cab for cutie - twin sized bed
04. damien rice - cold water
03. the used - smother me
02. damien rice - blower's daughter
01. straylight run - for the best
these are all song mostly that are not new, there isn't a huge variety as seen by multiple songs by the same artist. but i feel like this is a great playlist. i could listen to this playlist all day and night. please feel free to gauge your opinions on my playlist. what you like or don't like. i could sit and talk to anyone about common music all day and night. your opinions mean alot
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dreams or that sort.

in my lifetime, i have never had many dreams. everyone thinks of the american dream with the nuclear family. but me i never though about that. i figured my life would end up where it is, through a series of events. recently, i have been thinking about my life. this may be because of recent events, or because of my on-coming graduation in a year. but, i have since begun thinking of what i want to do. i think at this point i want to get a masters, whether it be in public policy or some form of political science. i want to do something. i don't want just a bachelor's. i have been reading a case study called "freshman orientation" written by a professor from emu about a republican named Joe Schwartz. by reading this, i have become so enthralled with wanting to be what this author is. i want to work for congressman, i want to make my views known. it has been the first time in my life that i have an ambition. in my life i have always gone through the motions, accepting mediocrity. and at this point a year before i am scheduled to graduate, i do not want this. i want to stand above and beyond typical people. i have been informed by a professor, of the opportunity to be had at a g.a. or graduate assistant. i think i could really benefit from this. i do not mind doing these sort of things. i think at this point, my main goal is to get a masters. to get my name out there. anyone that knows me would think different, but if i don't i will be the same person you all know me as. and well i do not want to be that person. wish me luck, help me out. but i want to be me i want to make this world better, i want to make a difference.

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school

so i am sitting in class not paying attention like always, when i decided to look at the masters programs for political science at emu. it seems very interesting to me and i may be able to do it. my cumulative gpa right now is 2.54. but that is with an e on my record. once the semester is over, i hope to have that e turn to an a. i started looking at my classes for next semester and beyond and became greatly excited. i will probably take one class over the spring/summer semesters at wcc, which will be my first class at a community college. it will only be online though, and the cost is about 70 per credit hour plus like another 21 bucks plus some taxes. so i am looking at under 500 ball park. which i think i could easily do. i also looked at what classes i still need, after this semester i can apply for the ug audit. hopefully i will get credit for some weird shit and will have to take less classes. that would be nice. basically i need 4 classes in my minor (public administration) a second english class which i will take at wcc, a speech class, a chemistry class, biology class, an art class and a physical education class. so basically 10 classes at 3 hrs a piece that is 30 hours. but ill take the one class this summer so it'll be 27 hours give or take a few. i am optimistic at this so woo for me.

a new job a new beginning

so this week i started at radio shack. i don't hate it but i don't love it. i get yelled at about offering the protection plan a certain way. i say do you want this, instead of we can cover this. whatever i don't have a problem getting it on stuff that should get it. but a 10 dollar sd card fuck that. it is rather boring though, there isnt always a steady flow of customers, so i must be alone with nascar nelson. so cheesy he is. we are forced to listen to jazz, while watching the speed channel, and listening to police scanners. in the 3 days i have listened to the scanners i have been rather upset. i don't think the general public should know the nature of a family's problems. i heard one thing today that someone was opening mail on another's porch who used to be their daughter-in-law. i find it almost disturbing how obsessed these people are for the scanners.
i also hate that i cant sit and talk to people for an hour about laptops or stuff i really know about. yea i do know some stuff, but like a guy wanted a tv from us, and although a good price it sucks. i want to just school him on all the benefits and stuff of it. i want to install his stuff too, maybe make some money on the side but i don't know if it is a conflict of interest chances are it is. but alls i would do is install routers, or look at their computers or set up their hdtv and stuff. ill look into it in the near future.
on another point, i worked at cabela's from 6am-10am came home slept for an hr and went and worked 12-8. it is money, and i am going to need this money in the near future.
my ebay business is slow, because i don't have the time to buy/sell like i did. and it is really sad because i really enjoyed doing that and still do.
i found it very funny, that i had to do a report on a memoir called 13 days by r.f. kenneddy. i literally only read 50 pages and got an a on the paper.

i also had an exam in my asian politics class and i can't understand the woman's english. i give her credit for trying but it is so hard to follow her. i spend my time writing powerpoints down. she sends tons of articles and tells us to read chapters. i have not read any of it and instead read wikipedia and well i got a b- on it and im happy because all the people studied so hard. i sometimes wonder my true potential if i cared enough or had the mental capacity to study for hours on end.

we'll see how the coming weeks go. i remain optimistic for things to shape up but who knows what will happen.

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an odd form of thinking

we all think in our own ways, in our own places. mine although can be classified as weird, (don't judge me) is the bathtub. i have taken baths over showers ever since i can remember. the showers happen occasionally, but lately i have taken to baths more often than not. i think of many things from what i am doing tomorrow to where i want to be in a few months from now. tonight's thoughts surrounded my starting of a new job tomorrow. i am anxious and can't remember ever being more worried or scared. i don't know why, but i know what is expected of me and i don't think i will be able to do that. there are certain things that i hate, that i can't stand in stores and that is a pushy sales associate. i will have to become that and if i do not will be forced to look for different employment in a few months. i don't want to be that guy. i want to talk to people and want them to buy what is needed and not what they should need. i've never been that great under types of pressure like that although my days in technology would say otherwise. i look oddly forward to seeing how this will pan out. but am worried that i will not make the cut.

i wish i had some money, like enough to have maybe a little debt but not at what i have now. there are many things i have been thinking of purchasing if i had the money to. one would be a broken macbook pro on ebay. why would i chose this? because i can get one for roughly have the cost, and if it is a hard drive failure that is only like a 100 dollar fix, same if it is just a broken screen. you can get a lot of good deals like that on ebay. i bought an old mac and am waiting on the part to fix it.

im excited for a new how i met your mother. it has been awhile since i have seen a new episode.

that is all for today
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