Run The Game

a few years ago, a good friend of mine turned me onto the author known as jason myers. his first book was much like the movie less than zero. but it was great, told the story of a man who left everything only to come back with a heavy heart. fast forward to his next book the mission which tells the story of a brother of a dead soldier in iraq, whom his brother promised to go see their favorite author. and then the third book a story about a boy who loves a girl and does everything for her. finally it came to my attention that he had just put another book out. loving and owning at least one copy of each book, (i am on my 3rd copy of exit here) and 2nd copy of the mission (which i still need to repurchase). but ive read this book "Run the Game" in about a week or so while listening to only instrumental music. such music as explosions in the sky and the social network soundtrack. this book was longer than any of his previous ones, up until today i was at the 350 of the 519 mark. and i finished the rest tonight. this story tells the life of a boy who fell for a girl. loved her and did everything for her. it was something out of the movies. however the ending was something that could be foreshadowed throughout the entire book with a will it wont it happen. it was a sad ending to a great book. all of these books are alike in some way. they all involve people who arent happy with their lives, who try to find themselves. however it's hard to in these books. they all involve heavy drug use and a common theme of destroy themselves to be happy. and come to think of it thats how ive lived my life. not necessarily with heavy drug use as i only have two drugs of choice, marijuana and alcohol. i live my life very hard, from the nights in my old apartment puking my guts out after drinking a half of a litre of admiral nelson, or the constant reminders of the scars from cigarette burns on my hands. my knuckles will never be the same. but im finding more and more that if i am going to live on into my thirties i need to take better care of myself. my insides hate me for the excessive drinking and for the most part i dont indulge as much as i used to. ive stopped smoking in the past month in hopes to better my life with job prospects, and even before i went on my mission to find a better job i wanted to quit on my birthday. 28 days later and i havent smoked. maybe it was leaving everything in a box that's 30 miles away or just being so incredibly poor to not be able to afford weed, or alcohol for that matter. i guess that's step one of everything. id love to have guidance it's always good to have someone to kick your ass into gear. im really hoping to better my life.

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