goals

to ensure i become a better person in the coming hours, days, weeks, months, years i have outlined a few things for myself.
1. no more drunk driving at any costs. i realize what i did last weekend was a terrible thing and i shouldn't have done it. i made it safely but maybe next time i wont. i know i put myself on a crash course to bad things when i do it.
2. not rely on sedatives. no sedatives, which help me sleep. i need natural sleep. not shit with fucked up dreams and waking up nightly with sweat all over me.
3. be nicer to people. im definitely a shitty person to people at times. from making fun of them to being incredibly rude.
4. become less dependent on others and more dependent on myself. i find that i need people to kick my ass into gear. but i dont want that, i want things to be on my own.
5.  be more active. being more active in the world will leave me less time for my thoughts. my thoughts suck and need to be put away for obvious reasons.
6. eat healthier. it's no secret i eat like shit. i eat some type of premade meal at least once a day.

with that said, ill visit this entry on the day after christmas. i know i never look back at my old entries but i will this time. i need to.

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