immaturity is my strong point. i hate when i tend to get serious, get emotional that i start to get too choked up to ever talk anything of relevance. i have people that have been through worse, or been through the same. while we have a mutual understanding it sucks i can never talk to them about any of it. i miss you. i miss how we were. i miss how anything i said wasnt retarded, wasnt wrong, was just understood. you are here in some capacity now, but it isnt the same. the best bonding we have had is little hell, fuck. i just miss you. be around more. be there for me like i want to be there for you. i dont care about anything else but having you there by my side. through everything. you said you were sorry. i forgive. just be there forever and always. my most lonley times have been without you in zero capcity. i know you like to leave, you like to just deal with it on your own. but it hurts. it fucking kills. especially when i have noone else to talk to. when i just need you. ive never needed anyone except you in some capacity. just be there.

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