as i become older, the world gets smaller. opportunities become bleaker. i know life isnt all about love and happiness but i feel i tend to get bowled over. like i am good for awhile in situations than others come along and i am just a stepping stone. it really upsets me that constantly when i build foundations they get crushed and then i cant ever rebuild them. i just want to win once in life. tired of losing, tired of second best or third best. it always happens and well i just don't know how i can stop it.

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