faith.

there hasn't been a time in my life where religion has come up more. the majority of my friends are catholics. i was raised catholic at least to the point of making my confirmation. but lately things like certain saints and beliefs have come up to a point. this is where i will now state my beliefs and explain them in a way. i believe something created us. while i do believe there was something beyond any one god as told by evolution, i still think some god exists of some kind. but i do not believe in one god and one god only. i understand some beliefs of the minor but everchanging major religions in the world. and i agree to some aspects of them. there have been times in my life which i never share with anyone, which i will now share in which i knew there was something. my first example is in high school, i am unsure of the grade at which this occurred but know that i was mildly depressed. i remember crying on the desk that was once my father's and felt an arm around my back. like a pat that everything would be ok. i turned around and noone was there. also back in high school i would become upset fairly easily before i discovered zoloft. i lived close to jefferson which would take you to detroit. i remember one such instance in which i drove down to close to woodward, i drove via jefferson. as i knew where i was on woodward because woodward is to me the washtenaw or other common roads, i started driving on washtenaw to east bound 94. i was at a red light, i see a guy in my passenger side and he looks at me and tips his hat. i have never once been scared in detroit. many people i know are often scared but i have never. with that tip of the hat i got on eastbound 94 back to my home town. i could easily have taken woodward to big beaver, and taken that home completing a square. but i did not. things like that or certain things like go left go right don't go have always made me stop and think. i also think karma is real. recently i had an ex-girlfriend's mother's book sell on half.com. instead of pocketing the money which i thought or simply giving that money back to the ex, i instead cancelled the transaction. i just believe that if i took that money bad things would happen

if that isn't some sort of faith or belief then i do not know what it is.
i will safely say i am agnostic although if i had to gun to my head believe in something christianity would be it. i don't believe ill ever find one god to rule them all. i have my reasons because of various things that happen. but do i believe in something. yes. what it is? i have no idea. will i ever want to narrow it down? probably not.

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