an odd form of thinking

we all think in our own ways, in our own places. mine although can be classified as weird, (don't judge me) is the bathtub. i have taken baths over showers ever since i can remember. the showers happen occasionally, but lately i have taken to baths more often than not. i think of many things from what i am doing tomorrow to where i want to be in a few months from now. tonight's thoughts surrounded my starting of a new job tomorrow. i am anxious and can't remember ever being more worried or scared. i don't know why, but i know what is expected of me and i don't think i will be able to do that. there are certain things that i hate, that i can't stand in stores and that is a pushy sales associate. i will have to become that and if i do not will be forced to look for different employment in a few months. i don't want to be that guy. i want to talk to people and want them to buy what is needed and not what they should need. i've never been that great under types of pressure like that although my days in technology would say otherwise. i look oddly forward to seeing how this will pan out. but am worried that i will not make the cut.

i wish i had some money, like enough to have maybe a little debt but not at what i have now. there are many things i have been thinking of purchasing if i had the money to. one would be a broken macbook pro on ebay. why would i chose this? because i can get one for roughly have the cost, and if it is a hard drive failure that is only like a 100 dollar fix, same if it is just a broken screen. you can get a lot of good deals like that on ebay. i bought an old mac and am waiting on the part to fix it.

im excited for a new how i met your mother. it has been awhile since i have seen a new episode.

that is all for today
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