i have so much to say. im not happy i dont think ill ever be happy in life. i love helping others. for me whe i had females i just wanted them to be happy and eventually that is how or who id be. well it is still me but im just pushed over. for once please if there is anything out there just let me succeed. i want to i truly do i close my eyes and i see my sons running around. please just grant this for me. i want to be the father i never had. he was amazing if i can be half the father my brother is ill be ok. just give me the chance before it is too late.

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