farts.

maybe as a child i was spiritual, but no longer am i. i never have been since i made my confirmation, however i still think sometimes shit happens for a reason. i recently moved by myself more than a month ago. and i can't tell how many compliments i have gotten. from my friends back home, to hot girls living underneath me. either way i lucked out and at that aspect i believe in some ways....so thanks dad...whoever...anyome or anything. i have become more happy in the past few months than i have in years. i am finally on my way. maybe it is the drinks that have done that to me and whatnot but i am glad i am where i am and although i miss things in my past, i really wouldnt trade them for where i am now. that can stay true for everything in my past, i miss many things mostly including ex girlfriends, but i guess what people say is true that i am better off without them. i am glad where i am. and lately, honestly everytime i go home i want to see my niece and before i never was like that, i love my little lilah bug and if for nothing else i can see her grow up and i can't wait for that. yes i can see ethan grow as a child,but i get to see lilah grow from nothing to something someday. i love both of my nieces and nephews, but knowing fullwell that my niece survived a lees jean is something so special...and it also helps that everyone that sees her thinks she is amazing. ethan on the other hand everyone that knew me as a child knows that he is basically me but in a different generation. and i am ok with that, but forewarn most people becuase of that and hope they can deal better with it.....man i am so looking forward to my nieces and nephews growing up, however i want another nephew another christopher wallis V so that i dont have to name my kid that and can go with robert anthony lees jr. to continune traditions.... man i am in a good place, and it may be the drinks but " a drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts".

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