a2

i always have a large blog typed and erase it. most of it is babeling. im alright, my alcohol consumption is at a level im comfortable with although, the last few weekends and next week or two makes me uncomfortable. im nowhere near where i used to be. blacked out drinking beer and shots and driving. i limited myself today to a managible level. i also think lately of where i was, and i feel like im getting better. today i started to think fo myself without zoloft. and i wanted to try to ween myself off, but a minute later i took one. i do only take them every other day so ive cut down and remain at an alright level. im still unhappy with myself in most regards. but at least i dont have to ditch people to save money. and maybe thats just because this is an extra paycheck month. but im happy this month. i can afford to do good things for good people and show who i really am.

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