chapter iv. a new hope.

i dont get to go to hessel this year. this is the 20th anniversary of the first time we ever made that trip as a family. it sucks that i cant do it with a new job and stuff, but itll be a change of pace for me as well as i have to watch my moms dog the entire week. ill be home in the htp for an entire week. i havent done that and probably two years. i know ill never move back home and it sucks, because i grew up there. but i also know theres a lot of bad memories i have in that city. and being elsewhere gets me away from those things. i am moving to ann arbor at the end of 2013. put that in stone. i feel that with my hopeful upgrade financially will make me able to do that. and its not that i dont love my friends back home, theyve seen me at my worst. but i feel like the people ive met in 5 years understand me more. i miss that play i miss a2 so much. i loved living alone because i didnt have to talk to anyone unless i wanted to. i could go days without seeing anyone else and id be ok with that. while good in some ways having a roommate gets me out of my bed and sociable daily. granted i spend most of my time in my room watching movies, listening to music, but i wish i could do that on my own. by myself. im ready to branch out once again. im ready for this new chapter to start in my life. i just wish it could've/would've happened sooner.
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