an end of an era

after 17.5 years of constant school i am finally done. i dont have to read for anything, study, or attend classes anymore. it feels good in some ways. the good is weight off my shoulders. the bad is easiest told in an analogy. sometimes you drive a car, but you just keep driving. finally you reach an end to the road. and then you throw your hands up and go now what? that's where i am at with my life. i need to get my shit together now that school is finally done. another way i see it is i've driven so far, but now i just don't know why i drove in the first place. while i love that i did graduate, i hate that i have no idea what i want to do. i started out wanting to be a lawyer. and now i still might want that but based upon laziness i can't. it is easy to reflect on something once it is complete. but i should've tried so much harder in college. i rarely did any studying or taking care of things for school. i just went through the motions of it. and i still do. i wish i was different but then i don't know where to begin and i know it is too late to change what i did within college. it sucks but without ever really studying i was able to have a b- ish average of a 2.60. i donno, i hope i figure out what i want soon.

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