funerals....

many people hate funerals whether it be because they don't want to see loved ones dead or the smell or things like that. no matter what kind of funeral it is whether it be a personal funeral of someone i knew or a television funeral i still start to almost weep. for example just now, a character of a television show i have watched extremely close for the past 5 years CSI a lead character Warrick Brown dies. i hated Warrick throughout the past 8 seasons. however when his funeral came about on tonights season premiere i almost started crying. not because he was dead but because Grissom started to almost cry. i have a weakness for this shit i really do. i avoid funerals at all costs, unless it is someone i truly know. i often don't even go to family funerals if i havent really interacted with those people in the past. to be completely honest i don't ever even go up to the casket. i sit comfortably in the last row and observe the people crying their hearts out. i hate funerals. and i want my funeral someday to be something of enjoyment. maybe a keg or two. i know that it probably won't happen but a boy can dream.


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